This is my first Emery Lord’s book I’ve read and I absolutely love this book. So much for nerdgasm on this book (at least, high school level or for me intermediate level haha). The story involves around Paige and her friends. Paige is having a rough time after her two-months boyfriend died in an accident. She’s going through a PTSD but after a year the death of his ex-BF, she decided to make a list “How To Begin Again” and that includes parties/social events, new group, date, travel and swim. Paige’s worst nightmare is to swim and that is the last thing she wants to do but she put it on the list anyway. She has a huge crush on this perfect typical high school guy we always find on contemporary YA and his name is Ryan Chase. Paige is determine to have a date with him or at least get close to him so her list of “Date” would be crossed off.
Paige has three amazing friends that will always support her no matter what and that’s what I love from this book, the girl friendship in here is so strong and I can just feel the warmth of it, it feels like I want to have that kind of friendship. We’re talking about #squadgoals #friendshipgoals in here guys. Then, Paige joins a QuizBowl team to make an improvement for her list (social group) and she met Max, Ryan’s nerd cousin, same age as her and Ryan. Max is a smart, cute geeky guy that is not usually you can find that kind of guy on YA Contemporary novels (mostly are dreamy and perfect kind of guy) but Max is MY GUY. Max and Paige become friends because of QuizBowl and their same interest on geeks stuff. Paige’s parents have divorced about a few years ago and they just started dating with each other again. She thinks that her parents will fail again and it will lead to another “fight” moment that she used to hear when she was still a child before her parents got divorced.
The stories in here is quite predictable but I enjoyed it a lot. I was focusing more on Max and Paige’s relationship because they’re like made for each other but they don’t even realise it at all. I love how Max is really care for Paige even when at first they’re just being friends. Max has a nickname for Paige which is “Janie” because Paige is more or less similar like Jane character in Pride and Prejudice. I love how they’re geeking out with each other and Max is totally on my top 10 fictional boyfriends list. I love him so much, he’s quite funny, he’s smart and the most important thing he loves movie well specifically sci-fi movie etc. I just love him.
Paige’s still having a trouble for starting over, she’s sometimes crying suddenly when something reminded her of Aaron (the ex-BF who died) while her friends are always there with her and comforting her without making a “pity look”. There’s one moment with Paige and her friends that really touched my heart:
“Before I could tell them I was fine, Morgan’s arms engulfed me and Kayleigh was right beside us, pulling Tessa in, too. I could pick out their scents….. With our arms around each other, I almost believed the strength could travel between us like the heat of our bodies. Nothing, not even sadness, could be greater than the sum of us.”
With her friends, Max and Ryan, she eventually face her fears and open herself up and back to being the old but new Paige. This novel is a coming-of-age novel, about how you can face your fears if you’re just brave enough to do it. I really like this book so much and I’d recommend this book to anyone who wants an easy read but still has a meaningful story.